Its been years that I looked back , too busy with mundane of life  .... I pondered ...and found the more we change ...the more we remain same ....somewhere I had forgotten what I had set out to do ...I am nice human being ...and not so nice at the same time ....its a self reflection...I am tired ...How easily I believe people and how easily I give them the power to hurt me ....I may have a garb outside but deep down I too hope to be respected and given the due long over due....I have allowed myself to be taken advantage of.....I am open about it because now I do not fear losing ....losing anything ....I have lost what I had to so I believe from here ...road will lead me to only success ....success in my eyes ...respect in my own eyes ...confidence for my own self......After all these years first time I have felt that finally I am on the path that I had set out for myself ...the itch remains , the fire to prove myself remains , the struggle to make people appreciate my true worth remains .....deep down i know this is going to be my year , I have promised myself....Enough of setbacks in life...enough of living for others and enough of dependency but at the end of it , I am a human being ....who has few complaints to make ....who has few revenge to take ....who has few milestones to achieve ....I shall not forget the wrong doers and should not forgive them either .....

I am going through a phase of hatred for my own self to have allowed myself to be manipulated , to have believed and trusted people while at the same time not being trustful.....its a confused state of mind and to get at peace will need some work....some tough work...from me 

Everything is me after all .....its the beginning and end ....everyone else takes care of their me ....its time now for me to think same ....for me ...about me ....and be happy .....I deserve it .....I so badly deserve it .............................................................................................................................................